If you could read my mind There you would find The two of us intertwined The image of you I have memorized I remember enough to fantasize I close my eyes and there you are In my mind, so you\’re never far. I caress your lips, your face, your hair And hold you close, so I can feel you there. Our hands all over one another Roaming in places meant only for lovers. My heart, it yearns for you. My soul, it reaches out for you. In my every waking thought I know you too have not forgot The love we made The passion, the bliss I could never forget the way you kiss. And though the ocean separates us, I know again, I will feel your sweet touch. You were sent to me from up above To stay with me, forever in love. Within my heart I know it\’s true. aax, my soul mate, I have found you!

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         I cry every day to make time past and so that life can go on without me. All these tears will be what I only do and I sure don’t want, crying to be the only thing in my life. I really don’t want it to be.
 Just let me cry untilI can’t cry anymore. So that when I see the sun I know I have to put on a fake smile. 
       Everyone thinks that my smile is real but its not…its a fake smile.. they don’t  know anything about me. One fake smile is all right but every day I have to put that smile back now, it’s not a good feeling to get use to that no good smiles at all.

Why? a fake smile, hide millionz of tearz

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Same old things as always. I really do hope for something new to happen but I don’t know because I’m still living in the same old life as always.   I do hope for someone to talk too. I’m sad inside and out with no one around. When will I be happy again? Please tell me sooner then later because I’m crying tears right now.

Life is sad,
It’s full of loneliness like this park.
No one was waiting for me,
No one would come for me.
I thought you would,
Whenever my heart was torn,
You make me smile.
And now you’re gone,
Which makes me cry.
I wrote you pages,
But there were no replies.
Where are you? Why ur not replyin!
I am looking for you.I missed you lot….
But this is the result…
I see no reason…
Why have I been left behind

Day after Days,
Night after Night,
The world moves as I stay still.
Staring at my plain dark bedroom wall.
I lie on my bed,
Screaming in my head.
Pain forever with me never leaving.
It goes with me everywhere.
Like my shadow,
Constantly there.

Before you kissed me only winds of heaven
Had kissed me, and the tenderness of rain -
Now you have come, how can I care for kisses
Like theirs again?

I sought the sea, she sent her winds to meet me,
They surged about me singing of the south -
I turned my head away to keep still holy
Your kiss upon my mouth.

And swift sweet rains of shining April weather
Found not my lips where living kisses are;
I bowed my head lest they put out my glory
As rain puts out a star.

I am my love’s and she is mine forever,
Sealed with a seal and safe forevermore -
Think you that I could let a beggar enter
Where a king stood before?

I had closed the door upon my heart
And wouldn’t let anyone in,
I had trusted and loved only to be hurt
But, that wounld never happen again..

I had locked the door and tossed the key
As hard, and as far as i could,
Love would never enter there again,
My heart was closed for good…

Then you came into my life
And made me change my mind,
Just when i thought that tiny key
Was impossible to find….

That’s when you held out your hand
And proved to me i was wrong,
Inside your palm was the key to my heart…
You had it all along..

No one knows how I feel
the worst part about it is that it is real
Misery and sadness is what I hide
I’m misunderstood and filled with pain inside

No one hears what I say
I hate what I’m going through each and everyday
I’m sitting in my room, crying on the floor
being ignored and unable to take it anymore

No one knows the real me
something different is what they see
My happiness and joy is all pretend
depression and anger are the results in the end

No one understands the person who is me
all I want to do is be set free
I don’t want to be the person you thought I would become
if you thought that would happen you’re really dumb

I can’t feel my emotions anymore
feeling numb hasn’t happened to me before
Caring less about the people who care about me
all I want to do is be alone, can’t they see?

In the end I begin to hate myself
the way I am living isn’t good for my health
Cuts and bruises is what no one can see
when I look in the mirror i ask myself is that really me?

I am a confused and lost soul
who does not know where to go
I need help and someone to hear me out
talk, whisper, and maybe even shout

It is hard to find someone to open up to
experiencing this is somethng brand new
Maybe I will become someone better
by talking more and maybe send a friendly letter

I want to be someone I can be proud to be
someone caring, loving…someone who I can say is actually me…

What’s wrong?
Why amI here?
Everythings not okay
The end is near
For me
Ineed to get away
Leave this awful place
To be with myself
Just me
In darkness
Forever
I’m gone

Through the darkest hour
Grace did not shine on me
It feels so cold, very cold
No one cares for me.
Did you ever think I get lonely
Did you ever think that I needed love
Did you ever think to stop thinking
Youre the only one that Im thinking of.
Youll never know how hard I tried
To find my space and satisfy you too.
Things will be better when Im dead and gone
Dont try to understand, knowing you Im probably wrong.
But oh how I lived my life for you
Still youd turn away
Now as I die for you
My flesh still crawls as I breathe your name
All these years I thought I was wrong
Now I know it was you
Raise you head, raise your face your eyes
Tell me who you think you are, who?
I walk, I walk alone
Into the promised land.
Theres a better place for me
But its far, far away
Everlasting life for me
In a perfect world
But I gotta die first,
Please God send me on my way.